My pap came back. Abnormal. Again. Even after having the cryo treatment a few months back. This was supposed to be a good pap. (So was the last one, but that's beside the point.) This was supposed to be the first of the three clean paps that I get before going back to the regularly scheduled once a year pap.
I am being referred to a gynecologist in West Plains. When asked if I have a preference for a gynecologist, I said that I know no one around here. Apparently, there are no local ob/gyn doctors around here. They are all hours away. Anyway, I said that I have two criteria.
1. No language barrier. I don't want to have to struggle to understand through broken English or a thick accent while trying to figure out what is going on with me.
2. I want someone who will talk with me and take their time to answer my questions. I don't want someone who will talk at me or down to me.
So, an appointment has been made.
Now the question is how far does this go? Is this doctor going to want another cryo treatment? Do I want another cryo treatment? What will happen if I just ignore this? Will it go away on its own? What if it doesn't, yet remains non-cancerous? Do I just leave it? What if I were to get my cervix removed? Is that an option? Is it an option that I even want to consider? What if it were cancerous or becomes cancerous? Then what? I am not going to go through chemo or radiation. That is something Husband and I have discussed at length. I will do alternative treatments, but I will not do that.
I have thinking to do and I have praying to do and I have talking to do. I need feedback and I need a sounding board. That much is certain.