I'm obsessing. We bought a scale last week and I am now obsessing with every 1/10th of a pound. I am stepping on it every morning and if it stays the same or bumps up even a little, I get stressed. I had misplaced my weigh-in booklet for Weight Watchers because I had gone up a few 1/10th of a pound two mornings in a row. last night, I weighed myself and being at the end of the day, naturally it had gone up.
I tore the house apart looking for the weigh-in booklet to see the comparison between my at-home morning weigh-in and my night time WW weigh-in so I could compare it to the difference between yesterday morning and last night.
I knew that getting a scale was going to be a challenge for me. I need to watch myself and my husband is (thankfully) fully knowledgeable about my past eating disorder and is aware of what to watch for. It is more than just binging and purging. It is a whole behavior/obsessive/OCD type thing that needs to be carefully monitored.
It was a big thing for me to even join WW. I obsess with everything. Diets, food, eating, body image, and everything involved in that just happens to be my biggest (and potentially deadliest) obsession if I allow it to control me rather than me control it.
Today, my points went way over. I went over by 21 points. That is almost a days worth of food. All because I wanted to stuff my face with a local restaurant's General's Chicken rather than make it homemade myself. I knew it was a bad choice. I knew it before I even made the decision to go there to pick it up. But did I let that stop me? Nope. I ordered the garbage for my whole family and fed it to them. (Why, oh why does chemically laden food have to taste so good? Especially from a restaurant that to my knowledge has never passed Board of Health inspections.)
Anyway, we had that garbage and now I am way over my points. I have a lot of burning to do over the next couple of days before Monday weigh-in.
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